Still Waiting

It's so hard to wait.  I feel like I've been waiting forever.  Then, I think of David, Moses, Abraham, Hannah.....sigh.  You get the picture. 

Sometimes I feel alone with God in the waiting.  I've learned that there is no other person waiting with me, no one who really understands the God-call I have.  Sometimes that has made it hard to wait.  Lonely.  It's like my mind cannot form the words to help anyone understand.  I feel at a loss when I try. 

So, I talk to God.  That's what He wants.  (smile)  He's been good to me.  I can't wait until He brings me to the place.  He's taught me so much in the wait -- smashed me down until I was ready for the sacrifice, ready to see my place in helping.  I hope I am close.  I hope when I breathe that if the answer to my prayers had a smell, I could smell it.  I pray that I am that close.