It's so hard to wait. I feel like I've been waiting forever. Then, I think of David, Moses, Abraham, Hannah.....sigh. You get the picture.
Sometimes I feel alone with God in the waiting. I've learned that there is no other person waiting with me, no one who really understands the God-call I have. Sometimes that has made it hard to wait. Lonely. It's like my mind cannot form the words to help anyone understand. I feel at a loss when I try.
So, I talk to God. That's what He wants. (smile) He's been good to me. I can't wait until He brings me to the place. He's taught me so much in the wait -- smashed me down until I was ready for the sacrifice, ready to see my place in helping. I hope I am close. I hope when I breathe that if the answer to my prayers had a smell, I could smell it. I pray that I am that close.
